Class was cancled tonight

I work third shift so on days where I go to my MMA classes I wake up and have relatively little time before I am dressed in my gym cloths and out the door. I awoke today with a text message telling me that my yellow belt had come in but was the wrong size and had to be sent back, and also that unfortunately class was canceled. I wasn't mad class was canceled, stuff happens and you can't help that, but I was surprised by how sad that made me. Suddenly I had a block of time freed up that I was hoping would be spent (fingers crossed) on grappling today.

I did get some exercise in, not as much as I would have in class but I trolled youtube for a bit and found a 30 minute yoga session and did that since it is national yoga month. I am hoping I can find a website somewhere to tell me what the exercise of the month is for next month because I have done more yoga this month already than I ever have in my life. This exercise of the month thing is just enough motivation to keep me doing it and keep me looking forward to the next exercise.

Also I don't physically have my yellow belt yet. This is driving me crazy, I am impatient and just can't wait for the next time we gi up and I get to put on my yellow belt instead of my white one. It is kinda like being a kid waiting for Christmas morning. I just can't wait to be able to hold it and put it on and feel like I am 100% a yellow belt now rather than a white belt and a half.

I suppose this yellow belt situation gives me some time to look back on my journey so far and it wasn't until as I was typing this right now that I realized. It is just a yellow belt... Not that it isn't important, but it is just a belt I still have the same experience and skill set whether I am wearing my old white belt or my yellow. The color of my belt does not make me any better or any worse than anyone else. I should take this as a lesson in being humble and just be patient it will get here when it gets here, it holds my gi jacket together and nothing else. I still have to do all of the work on my own to make myself a better person and a better martial artist, and a belt does not do that. I have to.